Bad Times...

I haven't felt much like posting the last few days as I've been going through an emotional rollarcoaster. I thought birth control pills were supposed to keep your hormones in check, but I have no other explanation for my crazy emotions. Life is stressful and everything tends to build up until I lose it. While I am looking at the positives of moving, it is still a hard thing to do. We spent almost our entire first year of marriage wrapped up in this house. It was incredibly stressful and Jeremy and I never saw each other. It is sad to have to let this thing go.

It is also frustrating that we still aren't settled into the house. It may appear that way (despite the many un-finished details), but our upstairs and garage in particular are filled with boxes of crap that quite honestly I don't think we need. I mean, if it's still in a box after what 3 months? of living here, do we really need it? I don't do well when my space is chaotic....

Compound this with the fact that Jeremy has Z-E-R-O free-time at home, I have not been in the best place. There are so many things that I would like for him to help me with around the house (Like going through boxes of his stuff for instance.), but there is literally no time to do it in. Tonight, for example, it's currently 10 to 9:00 and I saw Jeremy ten min. about a half hour ago when he got home. He quickly scarfed down dinner and took off for the pool to do a work-out with one of his ff friends. I am proud of Jeremy for putting his all into this firefighting thing, but I am definitely looking forward to his fire academy ending so that I have maybe a little more time with him at home to help me finish this god-forsaken house.

Lastly, (ok, maybe not lastly. I could go on and on about the political issues that have me riled up right now, but not tonight!) I am mad about my job prospects. In reality, there is a 0% chance of me finding a teaching position anywhere within driving distance in the state of Oregon for next school year. It might not even happen the following year after that. I am frustrated with this economy and the fact that some people do not value education as one of the pillars of our society. Education in the state of Oregon should not be in such a bleak state. Districts should not have to cut millions upon millions of dollars. Teachers shouldn't be losing their jobs due to loss in funds. Class sizes should not be rising. I am very frustrated. I don't even know what else to say about that.

Alrightly. Now that I vented and got all of that off my chest, I'm not sure if I feel better or worse. On a positive note: my kids were EXCELLENT today! I mean, seriously. They were awesome. Such a joy to be around and were exactly what I needed to remind me that despite the frustrations, they are the reason why I love being a teacher. There is nothing like seeing the light bulb go off, or making personal connections with students. I never get tired of hearing "Hi Mrs. Quinby!!" in the hall and seeing a smiling kid happy to have me as their sub. :) I just need a few more happy moments this week to balance out the stressful ones.

I hope all of you are having a great week and are riding a much gentler rollarcoaster than I am at the minute!
Lots of Love,
Britt